Actually I m lazy to hv a blog, but..after go through so many things, I think tis is the time for me to write some, and..the main purpose of creating this is that I want to improve my ENG in writing and can express my inner voice at the same time.
There r many things that I need to do, 1st is my sentiment, juz broke up with my dearest gf during the sem break, erm..it was quite sad and unbearable. For wht I did to her, I know tat I was wrong when I neglected u sometimes, I have the responsibilities to take down the decision made by her, I can, but..I juz dwan bring the misunderstanding from her and left her, it is no worth, seems likes she misunderstanding for wht I had changed juz for her, wht a sad thing it was :(
Kersan, U r the only ONE, tat I truly and deeply love from my Heart ever! I never think of wanna to do something that is behind u, because I really care u more than me, I do so many things treat u at 1st before me, but..sometimes it is vry disappointed when the one u love so much don`t believe and misunderstanding u, and said tat I was force in changing tat, but..actually It was't, I changed it juz because I realized that I need to change, I self-reflection for wht I did, knowing that I hurt u so deep but without notice it.
We broke up there are many reasons, and the situation we broke up was at the Penang Sungai Nibung bus terminal, u hugz me tightly and cried, tat time I was so pain and..I stopped myself in crying in front of u, I acted like normal accompany u and sayang u, mayb u dun noe my heart is such a complicated and sad feeling. We broke up situation was in a peace, I know tat u want to broke up with me coz u stuck in between ur parents and me, and the way we communicate sometimes hv problem, we need to be more mature for future, if still have the chance, and I success in the future, and if we still love each other, then we can be more mature together and happy most of the time.
I loved U, tat`s y I didnt react much when u drop me a hint for broke up, I juz hv a mixed feeling, let u go? dun let u go?
we passed so much things and time, we were hurt by different people during the time I ignored u in the passed one year, tat time I disappointed u coz u r so immature, dun wan to listen my advice keep let urself down and corrupted, it was pain and tired for seeing u like tat, one year later, now juz got a golden chance together and take k each other, I treasure it, care it much..sometimes dwan our love end in like tis, I tot I can..tat`s y I let u go.. without detain U~
But..in the end, I found tat I cant bear with tat, tat kind of feeling so pain until dun noe how to describe.. sometimes cant control myself in reasonable way to communicate and juz wanna to c u and talk at once, and the way u talked to me like a cool blood, it was much more pain in my heart...
Sorry for my urge and make u sensitive my action, NOW..I learned it~
New sem start, I want to be a more mature and reasonable people, in changing those bad behavior, attitude, and throw all the sad feeling out of my mind; on the other hand, I want to improve my result, I regretted for my laziness, hate tat, and dwan to play game especially on9 game, I must learn the lessons, times and chance wont be there to wait me grow up and change from my heart until behavior. I want to be a better MAN, a successful man who can provide the one I love a warmth and happiness family, gambatek...
I CAN, IF I WANT!!!
No matter what is the outcome, at least, I need to put effort on that, dwan to let this regret in my life~
