Sunday, June 27, 2010

Raining day~

Raining days~ are always the time make me quite missing you, miss the time when we walk under the rain, miss the time we talked to each other"雷电交加的夜晚...", it was quite funny and sweet... hope that you stay happy and healthy all the time~miss you so much...Ks
Will you miss me when it is raining~

Thanks for the umbrella you gave me, I treasure it much, I do not need to starve even raining days, hope that I still have the chance to cover you and go out gaigai with you under the rain...
The bus stop and the uncle that time after we had our dim sum, do you still remember how sweet and funny it was when we across the road and waiting the bus~ I miss that...
Take care, Ks.. I will always be there to hold the umbrella~waiting for you...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Dream...I hope...it comes true~

I...dreamt tat, U come back my side, hug me and cry at the same time saying tat, Can we together back? My heart...the Ice...melt...the feeling all gush from my HEART...

But...It was just a dream, even...I hope it is not~ quite missing you... last saturday 12/6 you went to Vietnam with family, tonight you should be back, hope you really enjoy the journey with your family, and...can relax and warmth up your mind and heart...

Have a nice rest...Ks

Today...if we are still a couple, I would like to say dear...my little fox, bi...Happy One Year and One Month Anniversary, Love you so much...thank you for ur love and effort, I treasure it~

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Thks my friends~

Last sunday,13/6 morning, my hometown friends and I went to a cave Gua Tempurung which is located in between the kampar and ipoh, it was a nice and excited experience, adventure activity that is worth to go,haha...
The scenery there is attractive, we 9 ppl went there and brought our own flashlight, inside is so dark tat we can`t even see our fingers if we don`t switch on the light... felt the dark...so terrible if we were trapped in tat environment >.<"
It took us around 3 to 4 hours to finish whole sessions, we walked, climbing under water, lean back on the wall, the most excited part which is climbing under water like a soldier is going to sneak attack ppl, when I stood up after I go through one of the climbing areas, one leech on my right palm~.~" hoho...shock and scare, lucky the malay guidance help me put it away, I can felt the leech is ready to such my blood and the small area of my palm is numb,haha... 1st time I met leech, the feeling is so horrible...
Thks my frens for giving such a nice experience and it is very happy to join u guys in any activities~else sometimes I am alone at room easy to think of those sad memory,haha...
Friendship~I care...thks

Monday, June 14, 2010

I will b there... If u need me~

Last saturday 12/6, in the beginning u r no willing to admit tat u together wif someone, but...in the end, u admitted tat u together bak wif ur 1st love, the betrayer, haiz...wht can I comment?!!

I noe u r no serious together wif the bad guy, but wht for? U still care me, and still jealous when u noe I m gd wif other gal frens, y still do such immature decision? I love you~u love me... wht is the purpose u wan bak wif tat betrayer, pls~stop doing tat kind of immature decision and behavior, tat is not benefit to both of us, y u wan use tis kind of decision to make us more suffer?
Love...is not like tat~U noe wht u taught me before!!!

Honestly, I will oways b there, juz for u~ I juz noe, I wan to protect u, do whatever I can to make u feel happy... Pls~stop harming our LOVE...we love each other deeply, there is no point to do like tat, hope u can really mature before u get cheated or hurt by others...
Don`t just say, but do opposite way!!!
I will always be there, if you need me someday...
Love you...my little fox~

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Suffer~

After u blocked me since 1/6, almost everynite I can`t slp well, so suffer...keep dreaming all the time, and then morning woke up still vry tired, wht`s wrong wif me? Even in dream, I found bak u and we together again, tat kind of feeling is so happy than ever... even is dream it made me feel ur warmth and ur love~

Sometimes the dreams are like the truth, I was trying to keep u bak to me, beg u gv me a chance...and I can be suddenly woke up with a fast heart beating, felt so bad...so pain...so suffer... Since u left me, seems like I never hv a nice slp as before...

Miss u so much...without contact u for one week, hope tat u r happy and healthy...Wonder how important I m in ur heart~ Sometimes feel like juz wan to hv a normal talk juz like a normal fren, but...u r no willing to let it happen...I can`t do anything, juz...can wait u... I don`t know how long I can wait, I juz know until now, we broke up since 30/4, My heart..my LOVE...still on ur side...never change...

Friday, June 11, 2010

Sometimes~I am thinking...

Sometimes...I was thinking tat, r u fair enough to me? How come our relationship end up like tis?

Is it ur 1st love betrayed u and dumped u at tat time made u so nonconfidence and unsecure in ppl especially ur new relationship~ tat`s y u oways don`t believe me in doing my things..and my friendship with gals, I willing to sacrificed my friendships juz to exchange ur secure feeling, and willing to quit all my activities tat can let me communicate with outside, juz wanna to get ur trust, trust in my love~to U...

But...how many times??? When I was trying to do something then I can`t get ur trust, tat kinds of sad and disappointed feeling do u noe? All wht I did juz for u, but...why??? Because of ur unsecure we quarreled so many times do u noe? how many times I was tring my best to explain to u? U can`t c and can`t feel tat is my LOVE to u?
When u found bak me, c whether I still hv feeling in u, if hv...we can tried together, don`t miss the chance, ya..indeed, U said tat u hv improved and don`t let me tired and won`t tied ppl until hard to breath tat is beyond ur control...u will gv space, where is the space in the end??? U suspect me wan to betray u and mayb I will betray u juz like ur 1st love, U hate tat, I knew...tat`s y I did so many things and sacrifice... Do u realize how much I did juz for u???

U told me that u r oways feel unsecure, why? I knew...coz u r betrayed by ur 1st love when u had ur PLKN while we were 18 years old, when u enter the camp he ignore u and juz told u broke up without any further explanation, and disappear in ur world, at tat time, u r totally...fall apart, how patient I was juz accompany u to go through tat...when u need a fren who was willing to accompany u anytime and tried to made u happy all the time even everyday we contacted through sms...even midnite...I was oways be there...juz for u...I woke up at midnite juz because I received ur sms..it was almost one year in between~I don`t want let u alone and suffer by the pain that betrayer brought to u...after u went out from the camp, u realized tat the guy oredi had another gal tat`s y ignore and broke up wif u... Ya, I knew u hate betray!!!

Now, U r wiiling to find the guy bak and told him u miss him, wht the... Do I look like so lowliness than the betrayer??? Let u ignore me and actively contact him, find him and even meet him date him out... can I say tat u r so unfair to me...unfair....reallyy..unfair!!?

The betrayer do such thing to let u hurt deeply, made u change from a optimistic ppl to a pessimism ppl, u r totally change juz because of his betrayed relationship to u!!! now u treat me like cold-blooded, is it really need to wait u everytime hurt by others then juz realize tat how important I am? is it???

WHY~why U oways can`t understand..can`t understand how TRUE I m to u...I m responsible to u..my love...y there are so many misunderstanding between us...I am sad... very...sad...

Everyone can don`t trust me, but why...the one I love so much can`t even understand me and trust me? so hurt...so hurt me it was...
I hope, someday...U can truly understand My LOVE to u are seriouly than anyone...
No one can really understand u juz like me... As u r oways cover the real self in front of ppl...nobody realize tat, coz they don`t know u...laugh cover everything from u, except in front of me, u can`t do tat...

I appreciate u so much when I 1st saw u and met u~ impressed me deeply~ Hope tat u can stay happy every moment and take gd k of urself, tat is so many dangers juz around u, but u can`t realize it... Take k~ My Love...hope tat in the future I won`t c u deeply hurt by others...or cheated by others...I really don`t hope tat happen...as...mayb u don`t noe it is much more pain to me~
I LOVE U~Ks

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The 1st admit sry u wrote to me...I like tat mature u r...

Friday, 25 Sep, 2009 6: 25 PM


Dear dear...
Hubby...
I love u so much...
Yesterday's incident make me so hurt...
I never thought dat u would really mean it to leave me...
I thought u will never leave me...
No matter wat happen...

U noe rite...
I never mean it when saying break up...
I juz have faith in u dat u love me...
N u wont say yes...
May b im too confident in u?
Hehe...

Darling...
Dun leave me pls...
Im so stubborn in words...
I juz dunwan to lose while argue wif u...
But i never mean it...
Juz like u say im cheap...
U dun really mean it...do u?

Sumtimes...
I noe im too over...
Dear...
But i feel embarass to say sorry im wrong...
N the only choice for me is to keep on argue...
Hoping u will let me win...

Dar...
Juz forget wat happen yesterday can?
I still will try to b good...
B a good girlfren...

Hopefully u will still sayang me like b4...
Hope u will love me like b4...
Hope nth change...
I cant lose u...
U noe...
I will die...
U r everything to me....
Sum1 so special...
Dat i love u so much...
I had been trying...
Sumtimes i juz nid u to remind me...
May b u dun believe...
Dat time i sms wif the penang guy...
I didnt realize this will cause u unhappy...
Coz for me...
Im not paying much attention on him...
Wat i c is juz u...
If i mind him so much...
May b i will feel guilty...
N i will try to delete all the msg n let u not see them...
Bcoz of guilty...
But dats not the case...
I juz forgot i got sms him...
I forgot everything bout him...
Coz he is nth to me...
U noe?

I love u...
Im telling u dat...
All the wrong things i did...
I dun realize im wrong...
I juz nid u to remind me...
N i will change the habit...
I can change for u...
Dear...
Like u see...
I din sms wif other guy ad...
Besides homework things...
Or juz saying hello to good frens...
I din try to catch anyone's attention...
I dun nid...
All i wan is u...
N i have u...

Darling...
Juz remind me if i did sth make u unhappy...
OK?
Its not purposely...
I juz duno u will feel upset bcoz of those things...
I juz nid u telling me...
N i can change...
I love u darling...
Nid u like oxygen...

Lets try to understand each others feeling...
Think like i am u...
Think like u r me...
Hope dat we will b better...
Loving each other more n more...
Never leave...
Dun do wat u dun like i do to u...
N i dun do wat i dun like u do to me...

I wish...
We can have our career dat dun nid too much of communication wif others...
If we can afford...
Lets move to a place...
Dat juz have we 2 only...

I nid u dear...
I love u dear...
I miss u dear...
DON LEAVE ME....